So I have this whole week off but friday where I will be attending Oceanside Model Congress which i'm so hyped for. It'll be my first oceanside so i'm excited like no other :] The only thing that upsets me is having no housing but whatever i'll manage. Two days of crazy debate and chilling with friends is all i need. & seeing vanessa obvs. She's so fun to just hang around with at congress. Like either we'll be spazzing out and showing people how much we cant dance or just bashing people we don't like :D

But yeah so i'm so fucking bored. This whole week i thought i'd be out chilling with friends but its too cold and i dont feel like smoking and drinking everyday like they do. Seriously i took a break from all that because its so old and annoying when you do it everyday like for instance. I stopped smoking for 3 months and then did it one night at kraayons and i had the best high ever. Just because it was so new and refreshed and not doing it everyday but whatever i wont get into that.

and the reason i titled this live journal Harry Potter is because i think i'm that pathetic enough to re-read harry potter this week. Just because i have so much fucking free time on my hands and my friends are out smoking and drinking and i'm not really into that scene anymore because its like i'll be doing that in about 4-5 months when i'm away at college so yeah. I'll have fun reading my harry potter and enjoy it.

Oh yeah, btws i'm like obsessed with the snickers almond bars. OMG best thing invented EVER. I had one yesterday and now im craving another one so badly. So if anyone wants to get me one for OMC :] i think i'll love you forever and a day  ahahah


OH YEAH ON ANOTHER NOTE I'M 3/3!!! I got into hofstra, u of arizona and PENN STATE<--yeah that was a big shocker even to me :D

So yeah, i'm going to get a head start on harry potter b.c i'm reading the 1st to the last so i'm going to need all the time i can get :D Wow how am i going to finish all this maybe i'll bring it to omc too? nah, i'll get distracted and not have time to read it but yeah alright BYE

Okay, so like half the kids in my grade have already found dates and are getting their limos/party buses ready and it makes me kind of nervous. I mean i got asked to go with a friend just as friends and then i got asked again by someone else but i dont know if it was a joke.

I mean what kind of guy marches straight up to you and says "Do you want to go to fucking prom with me?" 1 you do not do it so rudely and 2 you do not say any curses in that kind of sentence! So what did i do? I said wtf that was rude and walked away. So i think he kind of took that as a no but idk hes kind of a close friend of mine so it took myself and him probably by surprise.

There are about 3 guys that i know would ask me/i could take as safetys but i reallyyyy want to ask this one guy, but i'm afraid he'll say no. I've been contemplating asking him for the past three days and it's killing me. Like i'll pass him in the hallways during a free and be like okay i can do it now but then always chicken out last minute.

I mean guys...if you were going to get asked by a girl to prom what would you want her to say...so it wouldn't be awkward. Eh, idk i give up prom is becoming so overrated these days and i wish i could already just have a date and not have to worry about that anymore.

I'm procrastinating homework once again and i wish i could just stop being so lazy for once haha. I'd reallyyy like to get all my mid-term projects in on time but i just know thats not going to happen. Because after all...it is me and i am the number 1 procrastinator. Alright, so its like 9:30 i'm bored so i'm going to go watch some t.v or actually try and attempt to get my homework done.

Live laugh love,
linda :]

So the past few weeks I have completed over 7 more applications which I feel so accomplished over. All the college process has done to be is brought stress, agony, and lack of sleep and now i'm finally getting some peace. Well not really...I still have acceptance stuff to get over but for some reason i'm not really bugging out about that yet. I guess i'll really start worrying when I get rejected from the schools that i want to go to haha oh dear god i hope not. Right now i'm 1/1 and i hope to keep that streak up.


About an hour ago i found out that clinton got 1st and obama 2nd and edwards 3rd...seriously WTF is going on. as for republicans...mccain coming in 1st? and romney 2nd? kind of shocked romney came in 2nd thought he'd be bottom but man everyone thought he'd come first. Idk hes going down in the charts for me...and giuliani what a freaking mess. After all hes done with new york after 9/11 and such and having him so low in the pitts is like a slap across the face. Part of me still wants to believe that giuliani can do something worth while its just he has to trr i mean i dont get it you come into an election spending MILLIONS of dolalrds and why not try harder? i mean why not get your moneys worth? not even that but how can you make yourself look lower than romney! ahhhh**#@&%(@


Ah well i'm going to stop talking politics and get back to whats really important...the movie that im watching haha no jk but yeah i got a shitload of work to do...live, laugh and love :]

Okay, so I officially hate fucken applications. They are going to cause my mind to overfill and EXPLODE! Like holy fucking crap. I just did like aobut 5 applications in the past 6 hours. Non-stop with little snack breaks but wow...& not to mention my guidance counselor almost gave me a fucking heart attack today. She called me down to tell me that my Transcripts for my number one art school was lost and I swear to god i wanted to smack a bitch on the spot. It would've been the 2nd time she fucked me over. She lost my pink transcripts so all my transcripts weren't sent and i was forced to do rolling/regular instead of early action. SO because of her while everyone is finding out from schools i have to wait a fucking extra month.

But WHATEVER....that's in the past but yeah she basically told me that she lost them and then she goes through her paperwork again and says oh nevermind i sent them out. She's retarded and everyone knows it.

Okay so yeah i just finished writing my School of Visual Arts statement and i'm really content with it. Although, some of it's mostly realllyyy corny but i dont care its how i feel and if colleges look at it and don;t like it then fuck them.

I'm going to have really bad ADD right now and keep jumping around. So be prepared if i'm talking about one thing and then move on to something new.

So i'm watching I love the 90s and they're replaying all the songs from the 90s and it's fucken amazing. Andy B if you're reading this...fuck 80s go with 90s hahah

But yeah as for congress related stuff. Vanessa mentioned me in her LJ and i just want to talk about her. She's probably one of the best people i've met in congress. Like what she said...I'm happy i joined congress because i got to meet sweet, sincere, and honest people. Not that they don't have that in hewlett but it's nice to have a friend from somewhere else. So vanessa if you're reading this i'm ridic happy that i got to meet a person like you in congress. It's people like you who actually keep me going to congress and make it worth while.

& oh boy drama. it basically says it all there...boy...drama.

So yeah Jake called me last night...former bf of 1yr and 6months and he asked me to dinner for tomorrow. i didnt really give him a respond just that i had a friends b-day thing to go to. But yeah just the fact that he's starting to re-enter my life is already a really bad sign. But yeah i'm not going to go into depth about my love life b.c thats just unnecessary esp. for LJ and my love life has already been mentioned to half of congress haha thanks juniors you guys are assholes but i still love you deep down.

& wow i wrote so much...i think it's only b.c im procrastinating my apps again...oh shit my apps alright i'm going PEACE

This whole idea of being a senior is so surreal. Everyday I wake up go to school and then have a panic attack from realizing that this really and truly is my last year. I know that you hear everyone say "oh it was just yesterday" but to me it really did seem like yesterday that I was just a freshman! Walking around the hallways of hewlett; scared and confused out of my mind. Yeah, I guess you can call it the good ol' days. Sometimes when i'm alone in my room while i'm doing work I just wish back and think that I can go back in time and be a freshman again. And other times i'll just sit in my room frustrated and say "GOD DAMN'T WHY CAN'T I ALREADY BE A SECOND SEMESTER SENIOR?!" But I guess that's what everyone is going through these days.

Thinking about my life in a year is pretty hard to imagine. I can't see myself in college and being separated from my friends. Yeah, sure they say "college is where you make your real friends" but what happens to those friends who've stuck with you since you were just 10 or even younger? What happens when the people you grew up with aren't there for you anymore? Okay, i'm just looking at all the negatives about my future college experience but it's these things that bother me all the time.

I really should be doing my english project but I have MAJOR procrastination and can't deal.

But continuing on the whole senior year. Wow, what a hard subject to grasp. I mean it's already November! My first quarter has already passed! That leaves only 3 more of those quarters. Then what? College here I come...If I get into the schools I want to get into/go to at least.

Yeah, so I just had one of those reminiscing moments when I thought of my freshman year and it's a very emotional topic. Call me a pansy if you must, but I find it really hard to deal with. I mean while you're sitting in your chair reading this, just think about it. The people and teachers you have learned to love are soon going to disappear. The whole idea of  "yeah, i'll stay in touch" never really happens unless you and that other person try. Trust me I know. Seniors from last year all try and stay in contact but it doesn't really work. They have their lives and you have yours. And that is my biggest fear. I don't want to separate from friends and loved ones. Yeah, I say that I want to be 3-4 hours away from home but that's only because of the area that I grew up in. I guess I really shouldn't blame it all on hewlett. Because if I think about it, hewlett is the place where i have grown accustomed to and made all my friends. By growing up in hewlett I have learned more life experience that i would have at any other school. Not saying other schools aren't great but by going here i've learned what kind of people to trust and stay close to.

Alright, honestly it's 10:00 and I really have to get this english project in because it's already 2 days late. I hate my english teacher and my life sometimes but eh..whatever. I'll learn to deal and till then i'll just have to suck it up. PEACE.

P.S Michael Tackenberg is my best friend and I love him! & I didn't just say that because he told me to haha =P

The whole college application process is driving me insane. Not to mention I haven't done ANY homework the past two weeks. I honestly can't deal anymore. I'm going to flunk out of school and die. Well not die, but fail really bad. I mean some of the application questions ask...for example BU "If we had one more seat why should we chose you?" Now see, I can write a couple of things for that but I hate sounding too cocky and it makes my essay suck...a lot. Also writing about my heritage is hard because it's like what else can I include what can I exclude. Bleh...I just need to take a deep breath and get over this. I mean a week from now I won't be stressing applications because i'll already be done with them.

& HI BEN i'm talking to you online but I thought you should have your own little personal shout-out when you're reading this.

But continuing on...i'm in a bad mood i've been a vegetarian for three days straight now...Nothing but freaking salads, boiled cabbage and spinach and LOTS OF PLANTS. It's kind of depressing not being able to eat meat....but the scary thing is I can kind of picture myself in about  a month and see a DRASTIC health change. And that to me sounds good. Yeah, seriously if this whole vegetarian thing turns out well...maybe i'll one up myself and become vegan? I don't know. I'm not making any promises here but yeah thought I should just state that. Alright well I have some serious reading to catch up on and journal enteries about the Kite Runner for English...Not to mention I have a test on the book that I don't even remember because I read it like how long ago? HA yeah wish me good-luck. PEACE :]

Okay, this weather has been non stop driving me crazy. Like what is this? Freezing weather, then it's all nice outside then we have like crazy rain storms. I don't know about you guys but this weather is going to be my downfall one day. But besides just the crappy weather...College applications are almost done! Yay for me! I sent my SAT scores today and there goes $112 out of my pocket =[ I love it how they charge us to send scores. I mean isn't it bad enough that we have to pay to take the actual test...but to pay to send the results too? Whatever I don't care i'm just done with this and I just want to get into schools so I can finally decide what i'm going to do with the rest of my life. Whoa, honestly it's 12:02 and I have to wake up soon so yeah i'll write back another time PEACE!

Hmm...well I just decided to make a "live journal" today because it seems that all my friends happen to have one. So I decided...what the hell why not? I actually have no idea what this is or what it does? Is it like a better form of an xanga? or like a actual live diary where people can just ready my thoughts and comment on it? I don't know if anyone can help it'll be greatly appreciated :]